I'm Drunk and pissed (and depressed)

How does this happen? 10 days later and I am still bitter. People get to go on with their lives and mine feels stuck in time. Part of me wants to give up and go ahead with exposing this school and the freaks that run it and other times I feel close enough to just finish. I know the right thing to do.......... You know what I hate most...is the fact that I will probably have the same instructors as last time and knowing my luck, I will get them for clinical. The one for Labor and Delivery is descent, it's the chain smoking bitch that makes everyone feel like shit in the hospital that I hate (sorry if this is repetitive). Also, you know how hard you have worked and the fact that you have to write more papers, more presentations, more time...no one wants to endure. Anyone who has been through a program, jumped through many hoops, put up with alot of bureaucratic  bullshit and kissed people's asses just to get by and pretended that you like some of your classmates only because you had to do presentations with them (sorry run on sentence), knows what I am talking about. I am only glad about starting over again with , hopefully, a class that is less worried about being clicky and cut throat and more worried about the task at hand and willing to help their fellow students which I can't say for the professors.  I know that this is a work in progress and everything will probably be fine. I am such a lucky person to still be in this position, having great, supportive friends, a fiance that loves me for who I am and will support me through any situation, and I would not trade that for anything.